Diet rant

I have never been one of those girls that feels they are beautiful. I have always been the 'chubby' one and even recently now that I have lost a fair amount of weight I am still not happy of confident in how I look at all. My friends, family and boyfriend all say that I am not fat and everything but however much they say it I just can't understand it. This is probably quite a depressed post but it's something I know a lot of girls out there will relate to. I know I am a very healthy weight for my height and am at the weight I always hoped I would get down to but now I am here I still want to lose another half stone and it just wont come off. I have cut out most junk food (with the exception of the odd treat) and go to the gym as many days as I can. I have a job that involves me being on the move all the time yet I just can't shift this last half stone and it's making me really self conscious. I suppose this post doesn't have much of a point other than to let other girls like me know that it's not just you, and I am still trying to get the body I want and will blog every so often with updates on how I am doing. Also, recently I have started to wonder if it's not actually the fact that I can't lose weight that's making me so self concious but I have started looking into Body Dismorphic Disorder and think I may have a mild case of it, I don't see how people can not think I am fat when all I see in the mirror is flubber, its hard to think that maybe when I look in the mirror what I see isn't actually what I look like. End of rant

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